Lets be frank here, I'm not saying that I was a complete slut when I was younger BUT, and yes that is a very big but, I did have a number [that I don't wish to share with civilised IF bloggers] of [unprotected] sexual encounters with [dodgy] men who could [alarmingly] have been candidates for carrying some nasty STI.
At the time I was young and free and HIV and aids wasn't such a big deal. It is no excuse and I regret it. I know that I was stupid and I have often thought, and told the husband, that we should get tested but, well some things just get left on the back burner until you are forced to face them.
And face them we will. This Friday, although to be exact it will probably be a week Friday because it takes a week to get HIV results back. Yes, I've finally got round to booking us into the Sexual Health Clinic where we will be checked for hepatitis, chlamydia and, most frighteningly of all, HIV. I'm pretty sure that I haven't got chlamydia because they tested me when I first went to the infertility clinic, hepatitis is obviously a worry but I am petrified of HIV. Believe it or not, I have shared this concern with family (my sister whom I tell everything) and friends (work colleagues who know that I am insane and so don't bat an eyelid when I vocalise such concerns) but I believe there is a real possibility that I could have it. Is it just me? Has anybody else had such fears?
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I use to give blood regularly so I knew that they tested and would have alerted me if they didn't want my disease blood, but even still whenever I get tested for something like that I always have a moment of what if ... Best of luck.
I call them "the slutty years" and they were fun and I don't regret a minute. Although if I'd ended up with something bad out of it, well yea, then I would've regretted some of it. Anyway, where I'm going is just saying I relate. I went in for my tests and worried - I didn't worry that I had it, just that I could. There was this reality in testing that made it possible that I could, versus not testing meant I didn't. It's all very messed up, the whole testing thing. Good luck.
yea - been there, done that. My husband that I was a complete nut job. You're not alone! It's freaky.
ooohhh yes! I hated having to get the bloodowork for them. It's just when you see HIV and other scary diseases listed on your bloodwork sheet, you really don't want to walk to the lab and actually get them done.
Funny story: I picked up my results before I had my doctor's consult and one line said "positive" and I freaked out. I didn't know what the actual disease was. Turned out it was "positive" b/c I had chickenpox and *that* was actually the result that they wanted!!
I was a very well-behaved, wait, no, I was a very CAREFUL young woman. And I still worry about this. Even though I gave blood for years after I became all married and demure and they never told me anything scary.
Good luck. Thinking of you.
P.S...me again. Just wanted to present you with a blog award. I enjoy reading your blog so you deserve it! Stop by and pick it up. :)
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