DD1, CD7

I've done it, I have finally gone back to W.eight W.atchers (WW). It has taken me more than two years to get my big fat arse in to gear and now I am paying the price of that delay because I am the HEAVIEST I have EVER been. How could I let myself get like this? When did it happen? I must have closed my eyes for a bloody long time because it is going to take me FOREVER to lose it. SO here marks Diet Day 1.

But I have to stay focused. I NEED to lose this weight because my BMI has to be under 30 if I want to try and get funding, on the NHS, for treatment. I am feeling quite positive, although I am also feeling quite panicky because I have told my doctor I weigh a certain amount (which gives me a BMI of just under 30) and I actually weigh 7.5lbs more than that - how disgusting is that?! So, my first goal is to get to the weight the doctor THINKS I am, then everything I lose after that is a big bonus.

IF wise, I am currently on CD7. I have been feeling pretty low. It does seem to be part of the cycle, once the period comes and goes I convince myself that this isn't going to happen for us and it makes me panic. I thought I was going to have a panic attack at work earlier in the week, in fact, I felt like I was going to completely break down and lose it. Still, I have something else to focus on now so things should improve.