Pissed off

I am so fucking pissed off.

A colleague announced that she is 3 months pregnant today. I have been expecting this announcement for a while now but I will be totally honest and tell you that it has knocked me for six. This colleague got married last September and being 37 I thought that if they are planning on having a family they will be starting sooner rather than later, and sooner it is. In fact, I don't know why it has hit me so hard because the last time I saw her I was convinced that she was pregnant, there was just something about her. Thing is, if they only got married last September, and lets say they started trying a month or two before, it means that she was trying for 7 months and voila, there you have it, she is up the duff.

Why is this happening to me? Why can't we be expecting a baby, I wouldn't mind having to wait for a year or even two but it isn't even happening now. I am getting so sick of waiting. I'm WAITING for the good old NHS to send me an appointment for the consultant and when I receive that I will have to WAIT for THAT appointment. And then after the appointment with the consultant I will have to WAIT for the appointments for the tests. And then after the tests I will have to WAIT for an appointment with the consultant again and then when I have had a second appointment with the consultant I may be on a WAITING list for IVF and so there begins the longest fucking WAIT of it all. I think by the time all the above happens it is pretty guaranteed that I will be at my goal weight and just about at the end of my tether!