The start of a better week - hopefully

My weekend went from bad to worse to pretty good. I cannot believe the state I was in towards the end of last week. For some bizarre reason I had it in my head that D wasn't in love with me anymore. I know, it sounds so silly to actually come out and admit it on a post but it was how I was feeling. The main reasons for this are that we have been having very little intimate time together, you know how it is, trying for a baby just kills your sex life. Sex was a burden and something we just did when we had to. Thankfully this weekend we have sorted that out.

We celebrated my birthday along with D's brother and his partner. The problem with this is that D's brother and his partner (let's call them YIN and YANG) always end up arguing when they go out. They apparently love each other but you wouldn't believe it. Anyway, to cut a VERY long story short. YIN wants to get married and have kids but YANG doesn't. YIN gave birth to a stillborn many years ago and (understandably) has lots of issues and to top it off she lost her mother 4 weeks ago. So, YIN is in a very vulnerable state at the moment and YANG isn't helping when he spends a lot of time refusing to discuss future plans etc. Now I am not saying that YANG should marry YIN just because she is in a vulnerable state and needs the stability at the moment, I am saying that YANG should not be AFRAID to marry her just in case she runs off with his money and he definitely shouldn't let the issues that he has with his own upbringing stop him from doing something that would really and truly be the making of him.

WW last night was interesting, I was so scared about going because I was convinced that I would have put on weight after the weekend that I had and I was amazed to discover that I had lost a pound. I'm very happy with that and next week I am hoping for an even better weight loss as I have decided that this is the week that I will increase my activity levels. My incentive is obviously the baby thing but also D and I are thinking of going abroad in November and I am hoping by then that I'll be at goal.

D is off on a boys holiday on Monday and although I am going to miss him like mad, I am looking forward to the ME time. Everybody seems to think that I am not going to survive for a week without him, seeing as I have a VIVID imagination and will probably spend all night, every night thinking that somebody is trying to break into the house. But, I think it will be good for me, good for us.

So here marks the start of a more positive week and hopefully a more positive me.