Tiredness, weight loss and being left behind

I am so tired at the moment. I was just starting to feel better, have a bit more energy and now I just feel like I could sleep, sleep, sleep. I hate that after lunch period at work because it really is an effort to keep my eyes open and my attention on work.

It's weigh in tonight. I have been so good this week (even though I have been extra hungry) and I was feeling quite positive about a good weight loss however, the usual doubt is now starting to kick in. Just popped to the shops at lunch and I felt so FAT. I am now convinced that I will not have lost anything tonight. I have three pounds to go to get in the next stone bracket, I can't wait. Only another 9lbs and I will be back to my pre-ttc weight. That just about sums up the last two years of my life, most people talk about getting back to the pre-pregnancy weight but I am working towards getting back to my pre-ttc weight! So, that means it has taken me two years to put on just over a stone and a half, not bad going hey! That's what you get from being miserable. I wish I was one of these people who lose weight when they are miserable!

So, will the weight ticker change for the better tomorrow? I hope so.

On another ttc note and something I touched on yesterday, I currently check in on 16 IF blogs, out of that 16, 4 have had a baby after a battle with ttc and/or pregnancy, 8 are pregnant and 4 are still on the IF roller coaster. I'm really struggling with these statistics and was actually looking at some others to replace those that have been successful. I have removed some of the successful bloggers and will probably narrow them down further once the 8 have produced a healthy baby (apart from the ones that I really enjoy reading).

Wish me luck for tonight.....